Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Up, Up, and Away!!!




It was hard to choose a picture to showcase for today but I chose this one because of where we were and what it says about Thomas.

For years I have tried to get him to ride rides at the fair but yesterday, with bravery, he insisted we ride the Big Seattle Ferris Wheel. This thing was several stories high and he got into it with excitement and a grin on his face. There were no white knuckles for him as we went up and over, sometimes dangling above the Puget Sound. He thoroughly enjoyed himself and I was very proud of him.

This trip has been a very healing journey for Thomas and included endless smiles and endless walking miles (which he did without complaint). We took a harbor cruise where Thomas stood at the front of the boat, wind in his hair, taking in the sights surrounding him. There was the Space Needle with its glass door elevator that he rode up without fear (I was the one with the white knuckles that time) and he wandered around the outside observation deck taking in the beautiful sights below us which included a beautiful rainbow.

There's no other way to put it as his mom but my boy was absolutely BEAUTIFUL this trip.

Then, last night, as we walked through the dark streets of the city to dinner, we came upon a man, raggedly dressed and talking to himself about God and how death is not the end and then some other random philosophical ramblings. I held my breath and quietly said, "there for the grace of God go I." And I linked arms with Thomas and I said to him, "that goes for you too kiddo" and I laid my head on his shoulder, hugged him close to my side and made him promise to always take his meds. I told him I never want to find him wandering the streets like that. He held me tight in return and promised me that he would.

All around, in every way possible, this trip changed our life. I learned that Thomas is far more resilient than me (I spent a lot of time on edge, anxious and frustrated courtesy of my low threshold for any kind of stress) and he was a champion of the most amazing kind and I will be forever changed by my amazing, brave, bright, thoughtful, strong, young man.

1 comment:

  1. YOU ARE GREAT MOTHER SUPPORTING YOUR SON AND FIGHTING ALONG WITH HIM THIS CHRONIC CONDITION , HE IS VERY FORTUNE TO HAVE A MOTHER LIKE YOU WHO HAVE EDUCATED YOURSELF TO BATTLE THE FIGHT OF MENTAL ILLNESS,. I WISH I COULD HAVE MY MOTHER ALIVE RIGHT THIS MOMENT .... I AM PRETTY SURE SHE WOULD ADVOCATE THE SAME WAY AS YOU DO IT, FIGHTING MENTAL ILLNESS BY ONESELF IS A VERY COMPLICATED AND DIFFICULT TASK, THIS CONDITION IS A PURELY PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL DEVASTATING ILLNESS, IT IS VERY COMPLEX TO TREAT THAN THE RESTOF OTHER THE ILLNESSES. WE NEED TO BRAKE THE STIGMA IMMEDIATELY AND LET PEOPLE KNOW THAT MENTAL ILLNESS DOES NOT MEAN BEING CRAZY OR OUT OF MIND ... WE NEED VOICE FERVENTLY AND CONSTANTLY THAT MENTAL ILLNESS IS A PHYSICAL DYSFUNCTION IN THE BRAIN AND FIGHT TO REMOVE THE BAD REPUTATION WE HAVE FROM THE PUBLIC THAT WE ARE WEAK WITH NEGATIVE THOUGHT PATTERNS. DEPRESSION AND OTHER MENTAL ILLNESSES ARE DEVASTATING, DETERIORATING OUR SOUL-MIND AND TRUTHFUL COMPLEX TO TREAT MORE THAN THE CANCER ITSELF. I PREFER NOT HAVING ARMS OR LEGS INSTEAD OF HAVING A MENTAL ILLNESS CONDITION AS DEPRESSION . HOPING YOUR SON THOMAS FEEL MUCH BETTER & CONTINUE RECEIVING YOUR SUPPORT.BEST WISHES FOR BOTH OF YOU.

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